I just wrote a LONG blog and then, suddenly it f'ing disappeared.  The whole damn thing.  Gone.  I'm not writing it again.  Suffice it to say that I walked as planned, worked my ass off in the yard, drank 2 martinis and still managed to gather my taxes together.  The patio looks OK, too.  I'm dreading going to work tomorrow.  I didn't eat too much today, because I was busy.  I need to be more cognizant about what I'm putting in.  I'm having trouble dealing with"that empty feeling".  Don't you have the same problem??  I just feel like I need to get full.  Not matter what the cost or how many calories, I just have to keep eating.  I'll never lose weight with that mentality.  Back in the day, I didn't have to deal with food, because dinner was light and there was no food in the house.  Now, I'm around food all the time and can't deal with it.  THAT's what I need to figure out....how to have a healthy relationship with food.  Sounds like a book to me.  Lets write one and you can tell PISD and I can tell BchDrm AMF.  We MIGHT send them an autographed copy of a first edition or something.  I keep losing text in this note, so I'm stopping before I lose this again.  I love you.  Courage.  THINK!!  How to develop a relationship with food that doesn't involve eating.         J